http://www.wearesurvivors.org/?p=670

I know someone who tells me she was satanically abused in the church of England.
The problem is that she has mental health problems, problems get labels from Borderline personality disorder to paranoid schitzophrenia. She threatens violence and does very severe things, she is into druidism and spells.

The problem for me is that I know what it is like to be disbelieved, I know what it is like to be labelled insane, and for all I know, her behaviour could be because of the abuse, as my own wild anger and bizarre responses to the pressure from the church was, I am declared free from serious mental illness though, and I don't threaten lives.
what should I do? believe her? It is hard to get any solid consistant details from her, or worry that I am feeding a fantasy if I support her?

There are things I try not to think about:

• abuse
• things said and done
• my lack of car and driving licence and how the church took both
• my lack of bank account, also gone because of the church making me homeless
• the terrible things that the church have said and done and denied
• the lack of money and lack of future
• the fact that the people who have hurt me and the people who have supported the hurters have got away with it
• Dad's death
• Anne's death - my friend who died after the diocese had driven a wedge between me and her
• what G.P. has done - G.P was a close friend of my Dad and family, and last year he was arrested on child kidnap and porn charges, and there is no doubt he did those things but I hadn't known he was that kind of guy, neither had my Dad, I think other members of the family did. (G.P. was a close family friend who was arrested while the Diocese were destroying me).
• my family
• my background
• the millions of repercussions from what the church have done to me
• how useless and ashamed and worthless I am, especially with the church labels

Thats enough for now.

Fragmented thoughts

Here is some help:

http://www.thehopeofsurvivors.com/

http://www.snapnetwork.org/

If I can help one other human being heal from their pain before I lose my own life, then my life will not have been in vain.
Both these organisations will help English survivors and are trying to expand their work in England.

SNAP have problems with admin, so I was one of the few survivors to attend their recent London meeting where they were working to set up a UK based support group.

http://www.macsas.org.uk/

Sadly Macsas have rather messed up helping me and left me further hurt and damaged, but that is not to say they will do that to everyone.
One of their good features for anyone who is in real difficulties is the freephone helpline, though that is struggling with staffing issues and is usually closed.
Be warned, if you have been abused and access these websites for the first time and see the extent of the wrongs and read other survivors stories, you may well be overcome with emotion - distress, anger, realisation of what has really happened to you, not what the church have tried to tell you has happened etc, I have been.

If the church see this blog, I can imagine they will try to close it down, even though I am writing it in a way that does not overstep anything legal as far as I know, though I have been mistaken about that in the past.